Here's to New Beginnings
As I prepare myself to let go of my son for his summer visit to his dad's I find myself lost. I have centered my world around that little boy & when he leaves my universe is all out of A-line.
I watched a show & a mentor told a lady that it's important to be a Mom & to be a good Mom but in the same aspect you have to create a life for yourself & be YOU & not always just The Mom.
So while my son is away I'm toasting to a new beginning in life! I have all kinds of plans for the month...some that are really big dreams & lots of plans to get back to being ME again.
In my New Beginning this is what I want:
THE BIG DREAM:
In my big dream I want to find "That Guy". I'm not saying he has to be "THE ONE"...although that would be nice. But I want that guy to be best friends with!!! I want that guy to go do fun things with time to time. A guy that has his life & is willing to live his life but keep me in the big picture. The one that at the end of the day to go have dinner with, maybe just cookout & chill or will call & just chat & fall asleep with him on the other end of phone line.
I want the friendship of a good guy. One that will tell me things & know that good or bad I'm here to listen & support him & do the same for me in return. I want the guy who is not always just looking at me to "score" but looks at me in a way no other person has ever seen me before.
I am not wanting to rush into a "relationship" but I want the companionship of a good guy that is open to just about anything.
I'm ready for more then just the "player ready to score" guys, the "we will one day" guys & the most recent "it's not you, it's me" guy.
THE PLAN:
Call up old friends, meet new friends & just be open to the things along the way. Stop looking back...everything is behind me for a reason & just keep looking forward with an open mind.
I'm going to also take some time for my own therapy & paint in my new house & start making it more "ME" all while finding out who "ME" really is.
Maybe this will be my time that dreams do come true! But until that happens here's a toast to "ME" & all the good things in life!!!
CHEERS!!!
